Failure

Last night, while lying in bed, I starting thinking about the thing that I've been thinking about for a few weeks: I should cancel my gym membership. I simply haven't gone much. I have little desire to, plain and simple. It's not that I don't want to work out period, it's more that I haven't found something that works for me.

When I signed up for the membership at the beginning of this year, I was thinking back to when first moved to Champlin and used to go about 5-6 times per week. The main motivator there was that (1) I had someone to go with that enjoyed the same classes and (2) I didn't have much else to occupy my time. Now I find it difficult to want to drive anywhere besides errands, and the time makes me not want to go at all.

What I really want to do is start biking again, but the temperatures haven't gotten to where I would like them to be, and I certainly don't want to bring a nasty dirty bike back into the living room. It feels like I'm in a slump. I love going climbing and I like the little bit of walking that I do get when catching the bus (which is really only a few blocks) or walking to the bakery.

I know what I need to do: I need to come up with a way to start off small, to get myself going, motivated, and getting myself used to a routine. Right now, I think I should try getting myself in the routine of going on walks around the neighborhood. Of course saying something and doing something are two different things. I need to find something that works for me, and I need to stop feeling like I've failed because ultimately I'll be saving money and I'll stop thinking of reasons why I don't want to drive all the way to the gym.